Struggle....
i struggle to find the words to say what has suddenly transpired since yesterday. I struggle to express how i feel without being too vindictive about it. Its not easy given how direct I usually am.
For me, the most important things in my life that i hold dear are my family and now in an even greater sense, my wife-to-be and my immediate family-to-be. In a lot of things I can be easy-going and relax on the way i do things, however when it comes to matters that involve them or potentially hurt them verbally or physically, I will be very harsh and protective. That is essentially who I am deep inside.
One of the other thing that irks me is being blamed for something that I did not do. That is a big no-no for me as well. I hate being framed.
So to have it all happen yesterday when i was just recovering from a bad flu ? wow... what a triple whammy that was.
The real impact hit me when i went to pick up wifey. I could only hug her tight. I respect and love her for what she decided to do in the end though and I am glad that I am reaffirmed again that i made the right choice in asking her to be my one and only for the rest of my life.
So as she is on her way now to china on her business trip, I wish her safe warm journey and I cant wait for her to be back in my arms again. I love you baby ! and I hope the designer can wow us when we next meet up with him.
*Cross Fingers*










